This post has been sitting in my queue for quite a while and I think it’s time to talk about a topic I’ve strayed away from: body confidence.
One of the things you might have noticed about my blog is that there is no posts where I’m pictured in them. The main reason for this is I have a lot of body confidence issues and just haven’t felt comfortable with photos.
I have been trying to learn to be okay with my body and I think starting a blog where I am putting myself out there was sort of my first step to that. There is just something about sharing your life that makes you feel more confident, so I’ve decided to share why I have body image issues and what I’m doing (and will be doing) to help me not be so insecure.
I pulled these images from my instagram – but here’s just a sampling of what I look like. I have been about the same weight and build for the last two-ish years now, so weight has not really been my confidence buster. But one thing you will notice about my photos is that my left arm is actually not fully developed. Like the Lady Gaga song, I was born this way. I get asked a lot what happened? and my answer is always the same – “this is just how I was born.”
I try to be tough about it. I’ve had 25 years of dealing with it. But there is just a lot of times where I feel like I’m so different. It’s hard for me to buy coats and long sleeves because it just doesn’t fit right. Not to mention whenever I try to do something that slightly resembles physical labor, someone jumps into help. It kind of makes me feel helpless. Kids stare at me funny and are sometimes scared. But I get it – I am different.
And being different is hard. I know that everyone has something about them that they don’t like. And it’s not that I don’t like my arm. I love it. It’s me and it’s a huge part of my life. But even then, I feel like I will always be an outsider. Before, I used to pretend it didn’t bother me. Now, I realize that technique doesn’t work. It feels like a weight on your chest and I hated that feeling. So I’m trying to be okay in my own skin and embracing my flaws.
Sure, I’m different, but different is good.
so how do i try to make myself feel more confident?
One thing that I have been trying to do to help me feel more confident is just to keep my head high and back straight. I used to (and still do sometimes) slouch a lot. When I’m at my desk, I realize that I’m slouching and will instantly correct myself. I don’t know what it is, but I feel better just doing that. It gives me a boost of confidence and I don’t feel so mousy.
Also, I’ve tried smiling – even when I’m alone. It’s just an instant mood booster. I think it tricks your brain a bit, but hey, sometimes, you gotta just smile to feel better.
Finally, I repeat little mantras to myself. I know that sounds weird, but I’ve talked about mantras before – and I will actually say those mantras out loud. The quote above is something I’ve thought about a lot – confidence comes from loving yourself. So repeat after me: be the person you love. Do things you love to do and do them for yourself.
I know this is a pretty heavy topic for a musings post, but I wanted to get this out there because I eventually want to be posting some of my looks and just of me in general because I feel like this blog lacks a personal touch. This means that there will be more pictures of myself, plus hopefully some videos – that’s something I have always wanted to do, so I’m working towards that being a goal. I want to be more open in this blog and I feel like this is a huge first step for me.
Thanks for listening/reading – and I hope some of my techniques help you. Tell me your body confidence tips in the comments below.
’til next time, xo!